19 Jan Why?
“Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they’ve been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It’s an opinion… Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing.” Muhammad Ali
I have a fair amount more time on my hands as of late. Well, maybe my time didn’t change, but simply I have been able to prioritise my focus into areas i’m more passionate about. It was for sure a scary step to take, especially when you take into account comfort, safety and a roof over your head.. But my word, how important. Don’t take the easy road.
With time comes space. With space comes thinking, dreaming, exploring.. often even boredom. The irony of the modern way. I still (to my frustration) find myself under this annoying way, of having to fill my time. Luckily, the time I spend thinking currently is predominately made up of questions.. What am I doing? Why am I doing this? What do I want? Why?
Of course, these questions are in no way easy to answer; even If I do answer them, will it be the answer or simply an answer. Either way it’s important to ask, to test oneself and not become stagnant in our benign safety.
I currently view life as a series of ever changing choices. Choices made from chance encounters, moments and dreams. With this in mind therefore, I can’t see how life is a preconceived path laid out in front of us. In other words, it is what you make of it..
Back to the why..
Whilst trying to figure out the why to my why, I realised a couple of things:
- Relatedness: We are amazingly influenced by those around us; our idols, our parents, our friends.
- Social Integration: The moments we share are made up of others. Without others how can we live these moments fully?
- Social Acceptance: My decisions are biased towards the general consensus of those I respect. Of course, emotional intelligence and pragmatism play a role here.
- Individuality. A certain level of fuck it. I want it/this/that, I’m going to get it/this/that.
There are also some less pure, or problematic reasons as to why:
- Money: Whether to live or to gain more..
- Power: In a materialistic world, most see point 1 as point 2.
- Fear: To fail. Of losing an easy path. Of Disappointing others.
- Mindlessness: Never taking the time to actually feel/think about what you really want.
- Superficiality: Materialistic unnecessary wants.
I don’t really have an all seeing all knowing ending to this ramble. However I did rather enjoy and see the importance of the questioning. I’m starting to realise that it’s not about getting caught up in the details of the questions; but to keep making the choices that keep your fire lit. Who knows the extent of those ripples…
Adventure. Move. Grow.